Goodbye.

This is to the woman who helped raise me when I was a little terror. To the woman who let me stay at hers when I had the flu so I wouldn’t pass it to my brother and sister. To the woman who watched me and my siblings attack each other with giant pillows. This is to one of the most amazing women I had the pleasure of knowing. My Aunt Jeanne.

I could honestly go on all day talking about how amazing this woman was and how much she meant to me. But I won’t… mainly because I don’t know how to put it into words. Since I were a child, she practically helped my Dad raise me, my brother and sister. Giving us pocket money and sweeties. We would go down almost everyday, before school and after school. We would be always laughing and silly little things and watching random T.V shows. Chinese and Fish and chips in the week. My Aunt Jeanne was truly an angel, an actual blessing.

She always put everyone first and was always happy to help no matter what the problem was. You always felt welcome going to her home and it didn’t matter what time it was, her door was always open. Jeanne was a special woman in the sense that you could tell her you were thinking about robbing a bank and you know what she would say? “Take me with you, they wouldn’t expect an old lady to be up to no good” Obviously I never told her I wanted to rob a bank, but it was nice knowing I have someone I can trust and who has my back.

I always wanted to make her proud and I’m not giving up until I have done that! Auntie Jeanne is the main reason why I wanted to get into care work and I just wished I had figured it out sooner. Now she won’t be here to see me actually do it or meet my children or be at my wedding. No more Christmas’ or Birthdays or Easters or anything with her. I now have a huge hole in my heart in the shape of this amazing woman and its been there since Sunday 17th November 2019.

I just wish I got to tell her that I loved her once more and I really wish I got to say goodbye. As much as goodbyes suck ass, not having one sucks more. And its not as if I haven’t had a death before, but this one really stings. This woman meant the absolute world to me and now I’m lost…

For someone who was only 96 years young, she had quite a life! wars, weddings, deaths. You name it she lived it! I just hope I have at least half of the amazing experiences she had! So here’s for you Auntie Jeanne…

I love you and Goodbye.